(2026) Lyrics | Airi Suzuki - Hakushu wo

Romaji Translation
Nani ka ga kowareru oto ga shita
Warau shika nai kokoro ga itai
Ashita watashi ga inakunattara
Kono kurushimi wo yatto dare ka ga
Rikai shite kureru no kana nante
Sonna koto wo hajimete kangaeta yoru

Demo sonna koto dekiru hodo tsuyokunai
Tsuyoku miseru koto dake tokui ni natta
Egao de nigeru kuse ga tsuita otona wa
Anmari kakkoii mono de wa nakatta

Sakebu tsuyosa ga hoshii
Nigeru yuuki ga hoshii
Tomaru yoyuu ga hoshii
Jibun ni jishin ga hoshii
Waraitobaseru jibun ni hakushu wo
Ippo soto ni deta jibun ni hakushu wo

Kirakira to shita mono ga kowakute
Hitogomi wo sakete ikita
Watashi wa hito ga omotteiru you na ningen janai
Demo sore wo iu no mo utsukushikunai

Kyou tte nanyoubi dakke
Ohiru tte nani ga yatteru kke
Nani ga tabetakattan dakke
Nande konna kanji nan dakke
Mukiaitai jibun ni hakushu wo
Wakideta namida ni hakushu wo

Daijoubu. Daijoubu. wo, kikinogasanai
Sonna otona ni watashi wa naritai

Sakebu tsuyosa ga hoshii
Nigeru yuuki ga hoshii
Tomaru yoyuu ga hoshii
Jibun ni jishin ga hoshii
Waraitobaseru jibun ni hakushu wo
Ippo soto ni deta jibun ni hakushu wo
Taenuita kyou ni hakushu wo
Ikinuita kyou ni hakushu wo
I heard the sound of something breaking
All I could do was laugh, though my heart ached
If I were gone tomorrow
Would someone finally understand
This pain I’m going through?
That was the first night I had ever thought about it

But I’m not strong enough to actually do such a thing
The only thing I got good at was making myself look strong
An adult who had learned to run away with a smile
Wasn’t all that admirable after all

I want the strength to cry out
I want the courage to run away
I want the space to stop for a moment
I want confidence in myself
A round of applause for myself, for being able to laugh it off
A round of applause for myself, for taking one step outside

I was afraid of anything bright and glittering
So I lived my life avoiding crowds
I’m not the person people think I am
But there’s nothing beautiful about saying that, either

What day of the week is it again?
What’s open for lunch again?
What was it I wanted to eat again?
Why do I feel like this again?
A round of applause for myself, for wanting to face it
A round of applause for the tears that welled up

I won’t let an "I’m okay. I’m okay." go unheard
That’s the kind of adult I want to become

I want the strength to cry out
I want the courage to run away
I want the space to stop for a moment
I want confidence in myself
A round of applause for myself, for being able to laugh it off
A round of applause for myself, for taking one step outside
A round of applause for making it through today
A round of applause for surviving today