Dec 11, 2019

lyrics: airi suzuki - 2nd album "i" (アイ)

Escape



1 & 2, Escape

1 & 2, Escape
Daitan ni...Escape!!
1 & 2, Escape
1 & 2, Escape
Unashamedly... Escape!!

Oikakeraretara
Nigetaku naru
Tsukamaete mite Baby
If I get chased
I want to escape from it
Try to catch me, baby

Shinka no spiido de
Kakenuketeku
Michi no ryouiki 5G
At the speed of evolution
I'll run through
That unknown 5G area

Oni-san kochira
Te no naru hou e
Kawashite
Hide and seek
Koko ni iru yo
(No doubt!!)
Let's play tag*
Dodging,
Hide and seek
I'm right here
(No doubt!!)
(*t/n The sentence here literally means "Hey demon, come here, where my hand's clapping", but it's a common expression used in various japanese songs and games to say "Catch me if you can/Let's play the tag game")

Rinku suru shunkan
Umareru Illusion
Show no hajimari
(Arrow of Love)
The illusion that's born
when it clicks
The show starts
(Arrow of love)

Girigiri Gimme more
Mirai kumi kaete iku
Musuu no purosesu
Fumi dashite iru no
Jirijiri Do it now
Keiken sasete
Ikenai shoudou
1 & 2, Escape
Until the last moment, gimme more
I'm stepping on
that countless process
which will rearrange the future
Little by little Do it now
Let me experience
That inevitable impulse
1 & 2, Escape

Daitan ni...Escape!!
Unashamedly... Escape!!

Nugisuteta no wa
Yowaki na Logic
Kinou no nukegara Baby
I got rid of
That weak Logic
It's all the nusk of yesterday Baby

Ichibyou saki he tsunagu hikari
Mayoi wa nai
Speed it up
The light that goes one second ahead
There's no hesitation
Speed it up

Ushiro no shoumen
Watashi wa daare
Suki wa misenai
Kanpeki na Trick
(Get ready!!)
Who's behind me
I won't stay unguarded
A perfect Trick
(Get ready !!)

Shireba shiru hodo
Fukamaru Solution
Tsukiyo no supottoraito
(Wow~)
The more I know
Deepens Solution
Moonlight's spotlight
(Wow~)

Biribiri Vivid Love
Sekai some agete iku
Kokoro no shinapusu
Nurikaete iru no
Chikachika Bring it now
Shounin shiau
Gokujou no suriru
1 & 2, Escape
Explosive Vivid Love
Let's fill the world with it
I'll repaint
The synapse of my heart
It flickers, Bring it now
Let's tame each other
An exquisite thrill
1 & 2, Escape

Oni-san kochira
Te no naru hou e
Kawashite
Hide and seek
Koko ni iru yo
(No doubt!!)
Let's play tag
Dodging,
Hide and seek
I'm right here
(No doubt!!)

Rinku suru shunkan
Umareru Illusion
Show no hajimari
(Arrow of Love)
The illusion that's born
when it clicks
The show starts
(Arrow of love)

Girigiri Gimme more
Mirai kumi kaete iku
Musuu no purosesu
Fumi dashite iru no
Jirijiri Do it now
Keiken sasete
Ikenai shoudou
1 & 2, Escape
Until the last moment, gimme more
I'm stepping on
that countless process
which will rearrange the future
Little by little Do it now
Let me experience
That inevitable impulse
1 & 2, Escape

Biribiri Vivid Love
Sekai some agete iku
Kokoro no shinapusu
Nurikaete iru no
Chikachika Bring it now
Shounin shi au
Gokujou no suriru
1 & 2, Escape
Explosive Vivid Love
Let's fill the world with it
I'll repaint
The synapse of my heart
It flickers, Bring it now
Let's tame each other
An exquisite thrill
1 & 2, Escape

1 & 2, Escape
Daitan ni...Escape!!
1 & 2, Escape
Unashamedly... Escape!!

IDENTITY



Kimi he hibike kono merodii
Zutto koko de utatteta yo
Let this melody resonate with you
I've been singing it right there for a long time

Unmei wo shinjiteru toka
Hitsuzen wa nai toka
Sonna rongi wa mou akita no
Mekuri mekuru jinsei
Yomenai shinario ni
Tokidoki oresou ni naru kedo
I've become tired with debates such as
Believing in destiny or
Thinking that things are inevitable
Even though sometimes I feel like falling
Not being able to read the scenarios
Of that constantly moving life

I know Sono saki no rasuto de wa
Kimi to warai atteitai
I know That anyway, in the end
I want to be able to laugh with you

Kimi he todoke kono merodii
Itsumo senaka oshiteiru yo
Sore ga michibikareta aidentiti
Dare to kuraberu no demo naku
Watashi nari no zettaichi de
Orijinaru no ai wo kimi ni tsutaetai
Let this melody resonate with you
Always having your back
Because my identity led me to this path
It's not about comparing to anyone
In my own absolute uniqueness
I want to convey an original love to you

Teisai ga yuusen da toka
Suuji wo dasu toka
Aru teido wa rikai suru kedo
Jidai shidai de utsurou
Kachikan ni sugatte
Daijina mono naku shitakunai no 
Putting priority on my appearance or
Give out numbers
I understand that to some extent
But let's move according to this era
and to my sense of values
Because I don't want to lose the things that matters

I feel Rikutsu yori mo haato ni
Mimi wo katamuketeitai
I feel that I want to listen
to my heart more than logical reasons

Atari mae wo utagatte mite
Hajimete mieru tashikana koto
Sekai wa kanousei de michiteiru
Moshimo michi ni mayotta nara
Kimi ga warau hou wo erabu
Toushindai no negai janakya imi ga nai
Let's doubt the obvious
And see certain things for the first time
The world is full of possibilities
And if I end up losing my way
I'll chose the one where you're laughing
It's meaningless if it's not a wish greater than life

I ring the bell (kokoro no oto wo)
Watashi rashiku ne mirai he
Day by day Koushin shitai
I ring the bell (the sound of my heart)
Let's move to the future in my own way
Day by day I want to improve

Tarinai mono nante nani mo nai
Kimi no koe ga kikoeru kara
There's nothing I'm lacking of
Because I can hear your voice

Kimi he todoke kono merodii
Itsumo senaka oshiteiru yo
Sore ga michibikareta aidentiti
Dare to kuraberu no demo naku
Watashi nari no zettaichi de
Orijinaru no ai wo kimi ni tsutaetai
Let this melody resonate with you
Always having your back
Because my identity led me to this path
It's not about comparing to anyone
In my own absolute uniqueness
I want to convey an original love to you

Break it down



Ah Saenai hito datta
Sou iikikasete fake me out
Hayaru kitai ni wa futa wo shite
Ah Kibun wo kaenakucha
Rokku na oto ni EQ Up
Kokoro no yami wo umore sasete
Ah what a boring person
I tell myself that to fake me out
Putting a lid on my eager hopes
Ah, got to change my mood
Listening to rock to turn up my EQ Up
Let me bury the sickness in my heart

Kotoba to gyaku wo yuku watashi no iyahon wa (Utaidashita love song)
Moshimo toka awai koto kangae dashisou de kowai na
Mou sorosoro yumemigachi na merodii wa yameyou
My headphones play, going against my words (The beginning of a love song)
I'm scared I might start daydreaming of what ifs and maybes
I've got to stop listening to fanciful melodies


Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Amai oto de madowasenaide
Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Hanpana kotoba wa iranai!
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
Don't tempt me with sweet sounds
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
I don't need half-hearted words!

Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Nurui yume nanka misenaide
Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Anata ni wa mada ienai!
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
Don't show me a lukewarm dream
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
I can't tell you yet!

Ah Douse muri dakara
Shibari ni shibatte fake me out
Migi mo hidari mo wakaranaide
Ah Mae ni susumanakucha
Wakatteita tte keep me out
Ichiji teishi de ugokenu mama
Ah it's surely impossible
I tie myself down to fake me out
Not knowing left from right
Ah I have to move forward
I know, keep me out
Paused an unable to move

Kotoba to gyaku wo yu watashi no iyahon wa (utai dashita love song)
Bureeki no kikanai mama hashiri dasu freeway
Kono mama ja tomerarenai mama
Anata ni butsukatte shimau

My headphones play, going against my words (The beginning of a love song)
I'm taking off down a freeway with brakes that don't work
At this rate I won't be able to stop
I'm going to crash into you

Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Amai oto de madowasenaide
Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Hanpana kotoba wa iranai!
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
Don't tempt me with sweet sounds
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
I don't need half-hearted words!

Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Nurui yume nanka misenaide
Break it down it down it down
Soshite wake me up wake me up
Anata ni wa mada ienai!
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
Don't show me a lukewarm dream
Break it down it down it down
And wake me up wake me up
I can't tell you yet!

Betsu no kanojo ni natta yo
Betsu no hito no kanojo ni natta yo
Kondo wa anata mitai ni isshoni feesu de
Oohashagi toka wa shinai taipu dakedo
Yoyuu ga atte otona de
Hontou ni yasashikushite kureru no
I've become someone else's girlfriend
This time it's not someone like you
Who gets super excited together with me at festivals
It's someone grown-up and calm, who really treats me well

Betsu no hito no kanojo ni natta yo
Kondo wa anata mitai ni eiga mitetemo
Watashi yori naiteru koto nante naishi
Donna koto ni mo kuwashikute
Hontou ni sonkei dekiru hito na no
I've become someone else's girlfriend
This time, it's not someone who's doing something
As dumb as crying more than me when watching a movie
It's a person that's knowledgeable about anything
Truly someone respectable

Kisu ya taido dakede owarasetari sezuni
Chanto "Suki da" to iu kotoba de kureru no
Donari ai wa oroka? Kuchi genkan mo nakute
Mushiro okoru toko ga doko ni mo nai no
And it doesn't just stop at kissing and his attitude,
He clearly tells me "I love you"
What about shouting ? We don't even have arguments
In fact, there's not anything about him I can be angry about

Dakara mou aenai ya gomennne
Dakara mou aenai ya gomennne
Anata mo hayaku natte ne
Betsu no hito no kareshi ni
So I can't see you anymore, I'm sorry
So I can't see you anymore, I'm sorry
So you too, quickly
Become someone else's boyfriend

Betsu no hito no kanojo ni natta yo
Anata no toki mitai ni suppin datte
Waratte irareru watashi dewa nakute
Isshoukenmei oshareshite
Narubeku chanto shiteru no
I've become someone else's girlfriend
I'm not like the me when I was with you,
Able to laugh even when not wearing make-up
I'm trying my best to be always fashionable
And keep my act together

Betsu no hito no kanojo ni natta yo
Anata no toki mitai ni ookii na koe de
Guchi wo iuyou na watashi de wa nakute
Sore wo suru to sukoshi dake hikararete shimau kara
I've become someone else's girlfriend
I'm not like the me when I was with you
Complaining in a loud voice
Because even if do that a little bit, I'll get told off

Yume ya kibou na toka wo kataru koto wo kiraitte
Chanto genjitsu wo ne mitsumete ite
Tadashii koto dake shika iwanai kara
Zutto sarake dasezu otonashiku shiteru no
He hates talking about dreams and hopes
And is always properly looking at the reality
He only says what is proper and true and so
I've been trying to act mature without revealing my true self this whole time

Dakara mou aenai ya gomennne
Dakara mou aenai ya gomennne
Anata mo hayaku natte ne
Dakedo watashi wa zurui kara
So I can't see you anymore, I'm sorry
So I can't see you anymore, I'm sorry
So you too, quickly become someone else's boyfriend
But I'm unfair, so...

Dakara mou aitai ya gomenne
Dakara mou aitai na zurui ne
Anata mo hayaku natte ne
Betsu no hito no kareshi ni
Watashi ga denwa wo shichau mae ni
So, I really want to see you, I'm sorry
So I miss you... that's unfair, isn't it
So you too, quickly become someone else's boyfriend
Before I end up calling you

Hanauta


Aa Hajimemashite Sono shunkan sudeni tokubetsu de
Demo ano hi kara nani mo kawarenai namae no nai kankei
Datte itsumo kimi no hanauta Kanashii koi wo utaunda
Nee Sono wake wa iwanaide
Dakara watashi wa kitto Kimi no kimochi wo zutto
Shiritakunai no kana
Ah, nice to meet you That was special from that moment already
But since that day it's a non-changing relationship without any name
You're always humming a song about sad love
Hey, don't tell me the reason why
That's because I, always for sure
Never want to know your true feelings

Futari onaji toki Kuchizusamu rarara
Kanawanai koi wo noseru merodii
Watashi wa kimi wo kasaneta yo
Kimi wa dare wo kasaneta no ?
Tameiki majiri de Osoroi no rarara
Omoide no iro wa chigau mitai
Hontouni suki na uta na no ni
Doushite ima dake kikitakunai 
That lalala we whisper together at the same time
A melody to put on a love that will never come true
I identified with you
Who did you identify to ?
Our matching lalala, coupled with sighs
Seems like the color of our memory is different 
Even though it's my favorite song
Why don't I want to listen to it right now ?

Aa Sou ieba sa
Sukina taipu sae mo shiranai ya
Renai jimita hanashi de  Honne ni furete Kizutsuku no ga kowai no
Shitteru kagiri no futari nara
Miteta anime mo onaji na no ni
Kokoro dake ga mienakute
Dakedo kou shite zutto Soba ni itai yo
Gyutto suru hi wa kuru no kana
Ah, by the way
I don't even know your favorite type
A romantic story brushing my true desire, I'm scared to get hurt
As long as it's the two of us I know
It should be the same as the anime I saw
I can't really see your true feelings
But I want to be by your side like this always
I wonder if the day you hold me in your arms will come ?

Futari onaji toki Kuchizusamu rarara
Kanawanai koi wo noseru merodii
Watashi wa kimi wo kasaneta yo
Kimi wa dare wo kasaneta no ?
Tameiki majiri de Osoroi no rarara
Omoide no iro wa chigau mitai
Hontouni suki na uta na no ni
Doushite ima dake kikitakunai 
That lalala we whisper together at the same time
A melody to put on a love that will never come true
I identified with you
Who did you identify to ?
Our matching lalala, coupled with sighs
Seems like the color of our memory is different 
Even though it's my favorite song
Why don't I want to listen to it right now ?

Sukina ko ita tte itteta ne
Sono ato sono ko to dou natta no ?
Aa Yappari nandemo nai ya
Dakedo doko ka de watashi Itsuka kono koigokoro
Todoku to shinjiteru
You told me you had a girl you liked
How did it turn out ?
Ah, that doesn't matter
But there's a me somewhere who believes that
This love will reach you someday 

Futari onaji toki Kuchizusamu rarara
Kanawanai koi wo noseru merodii
Watashi wa kimi wo kasaneta yo
Kimi wa dare wo kasaneta no ?
Tameiki majiri de Osoroi no rarara
Omoide no iro wa chigau keredo
Itsu no hi ga shiawase na uta
Onaji kimochi de utaitai na 
That lalala we whisper together at the same time
A melody to put on a love that will never come true
I identified with you
Who did you identify to ?
Our matching lalala, coupled with sighs
Even if the color of our memory is different
One day I really hope that
I'll be able to sing a happy song with that same feeling

Kimagure

coming soon

Parallel Date

coming soon

Dissolution

coming soon

TRICK




How do you feel about me ?
Sunao ni kikua dake ja tsumaranai
Koumyouna trick de neraiuchi
Subete kanpekina hazu datta no ni
How do you feel about me ?
Asking you directly is so boring 
I will shoot my shot with a clever trick
Even though everything was supposed to be perfect

Koi no sekai ni wa mamono ga
Nani ga okoru ka wa wakaranai
Ijiaru sugiru taimingu
Face to face Saikou no suriru
There's a demon in the world of love
I don't know what will happen
A too nasty timing
Face to face The best thrill 

(yeah yeah yeah) Itsumo no jibun sura
(yeah yeah yeah) Wasureru kurai kitai shiteru
dakara do it do it do it do it baby
(yeah yeah yeah) I expect so much that
(yeah yeah yeah) I'm starting to forget my own self
so do it do it do it do it baby

Hey boy Kimi no risou
Tameshite minakya wakaranai deshou
Zettaiteki na shoudou
Atsuku moeru saidaikyuu ni joushou
Dare ka janai kimi dake ni kanjite hoshii kono tenshon
(Mitasaretai Mitashitemitai)
Onegai baby boy Kocchi kite yo
Hey boy, your ideal
You won't know it if you don't try, right ?
An impulsive desire
Burning hot, rising to the top
This tension I don't want anyone to feel but you
(I want to be satisfied, I want to satisfy you)
Please, come here baby boy

(Afureru omoi Oboretetai)
Donna kimi datte soba ni iru yo
(These overflowing thoughts I want to drown)
I will be on your side no matter what

Aimaina kankei nara hiroi kirenai hodo atta
Nani ka ai de nani ga tsumi ka wakaranai boodaarain
Yuunouna sanbou datte kotae kirenai koto You know
Shinkou wa juunin tooiro ni machiawaseteiru mono deshou
If it's about ambiguous relationship, I've had more than you can think of
A borderline that doesn't know what is love or what are sins
A thing that even the most capable counselor doesn't have an answer for, you know
Thoughts are depending on people, different strokes for different folks

(yeah yeah yeah) Douri toka risei
(yeah yeah yeah) Kangaeru yori mo
Kimi no honnou no mama Show me show me
do it do it do it do it (baby)
(yeah yeah yeah) More than thinking about
(yeah yeah yeah) The proper way or the reason
Show me show me With your instinct
do it do it do it do it (baby)

Hey boy Kimi no souzou
Koete guuzen hitsuzen sono saki he
Unmeiteki na shoudou
Ano hi no koto oboetenai deshou
Toge no aru yasashisa ga watashi ni muchuu ni saseta
(Tomerarenai mou tomaranai)
Onegai baby boy Kocchi mite yo
Hey boy Your imagination
Overcome it and let's slip accidentally to the inevitable other side
This fateful desire
Don't you remember what happened that day ?
That thorny kindness made me go crazy
(It can't be stopped, I won't stop anymore)
Please, look here baby boy

(Do you wanna touch me?
Do you wanna catch me?)
Futari wa tada hikareau
Teisei nante kinishite matteru kurai kara
Hajimeyou yo Atarashii mirai
(Do you wanna touch me?
Do you wanna catch me?)
We're just two people attracted to one-another
If you can wait because you're afraid of your image
We might just start it The new future

Hey boy Kimi no risou
Tameshite minakya wakaranai deshou
Zettaiteki na shoudou
Atsuku moeru saidaikyuu ni joushou
Dare ka janai kimi dake ni kanjite hoshii kono tenshon
(Mitasaretai Mitashitemitai)
Onegai baby boy Oide yo
Hey boy, your ideal
You won't know it if you don't try, right ?
An impulsive desire
Burning hot, rising to the top
This tension I don't want anyone to feel but you
(I want to be satisfied, I want to satisfy you)
Please, come here baby boy

(Hey boy I want you baby
Hey boy I want you baby)

Hoka no dare ka janaku kimi ga ii no
I don't want anybody else but you 

STRONGER

coming soon

BYE BYE

coming soon

Watashi no Migigawa



Atto isshun jikan tomatta yo
Kauntaa no sumi
Negitan shio yaiteru to butsukaru
Anata no ude
Time stopped for a small bit
When our arms bumped
while cooking a beef tongue
on the corner of the counter

Baito owari oniku ni tsuraretekita keredo
Okashii na fureru tabi mune ga
Aburarete
You asked me out after our shift
It's funny how my chest shakes
Whenever we touch a bit
Aa, sou ka
Anata wa hidari kiki
Suwaru tokoro kangae nakucha
Dokidoki shichau naa
Ah, that's right
You're left-handed
We have to think about where to sit
Makes my heart pump

Chotto ooki na anata no te
Yakimono wa otoko no shigoto datte
Itsumo itte kureteru kedo
Anata wa zutto tabeteru
With your bigger hands
You always say "Cooking the meat
Is the guy's job"
But you're always eating

Kitto anata watashi tomadoi
Kizuite nai?
Tabe na yo to mujaki ni sekasu koe
Kogasarete
Didn't you notice
How confused I was?
Your scorched voice
Innocently telling me "Eat more"

Aa, nande
Teeburu janai no
Keisan? Masaka aete? Kore wa
Nerattetari shite ne
Ah, why
It's not a table setting?
Was it calculated?
Please let it be

Chotto wa yuuki dashite mite
Kokuhaku wa otoko no shigoto datte
Itsumo itte kureteru kedo
Anata wa zutto matteru
Please be a bit more brave
I was always told that the confessions
Was the guy's work but
You keep on waiting

Itsumo youki na anata demo
Honki miseta toki wa shinken
Sonna yokogao miserarecha
Yappa nikumenai yo na
Even you who's always so cheerful
You're pretty serious when you show your true face
Of course I can't get to hate you
After having seen that profile

Chotto ooki na anata no te
Yakimono wa otoko no shigoto datte
Kakko tsukanai toko ga suki
Anata wo zutto matteru
"Kondo wa doko ikou ka"
With your bigger hands
You always say "Cooking the meat is the guy's job"
I love that you're always so natural
You keep on waiting
"When should we go next time?"

tv appearances : suzuki airi - i (アイ)

 06.12.2019 - NHK "GogoUta"
Hanauta



 08.12.2019 - NHK "J-MELO"
Break it down



Nov 17, 2019

events & goods : suzuki airi - i (アイ)

24.11.2019
─ Album preorder handshake event & special talk, 19:00 @ TOWER RECORDS Umeda NU
07.12.2019
─ Handshake event at Tokai Radio Premium Week Reiwa Dragon Special, 17:30 @ Asunal Kanayama
08.12.2019
─ Special talk & handshake event, 14:30 & 17:00 @ Aichi
▪ 17.12.2019
─ Special mini-live & handshake event, 19:00 @ Kawasaki CLUB CITTA
18.12.2019
─ Special mini-live & handshake event, 18:15 @ Ikebukuro Sunshine City
▪ 02.02.2020
─ AIRI SUZUKI Special acoustic live Listen to "i" ! by forTUNE music, 15:30 & 17:30 @ Miyagi Dare mo shiranai gekijo
▪ 09.02.2020
─ AIRI SUZUKI Special acoustic live Listen to "i" ! by forTUNE music, 15:30 & 17:30 @ Osaka YES THEATER
11.02.2020
─ AIRI SUZUKI Special acoustic live Listen to "i" ! by forTUNE music, 15:30 & 17:30 @ Aichi Token Hall
23.02.2020
─ AIRI SUZUKI Special acoustic live Listen to "i" ! by forTUNE music, 15:30 & 17:30 @ Kanagawa Yokohama Landmark Hall
08.03.2020
─ AIRI SUZUKI Special acoustic live Listen to "i" ! by forTUNE music, 15:30 & 17:30 @ Hokkaido cube garden
15.02.2020
─ AIRI SUZUKI Special acoustic live Listen to "i" ! by forTUNE music, 15:30 & 17:30 @ Fukuoka ROOMS

Nov 12, 2019

(TRANSLATION) Suzuki Airi for Forbes Japan - To keep learning about yourself. The professional work ethic which supported Suzuki Airi's career for 18 years.


"God doesn't give with both hand". You can deny those words by taking her as an example.

This is Suzuki Airi, former Idol group ℃-ute's center, who is now active as a solo artist but also a model and actress. 
After passing one of "Hello! Project"'s audition in 2002, she was selected as a member of the Idol group "℃-ute" in 2005. The year of their major debut, they won an award for Best New Artist and performed at venues considered the best for popular artists, such as Nippon Budokan or Saitama Super Arena. In parallel with her idol activities, she also works as an exclusive model for the women's fashion magazine "Ray", and graduated from Keio University. 

Shortly after her solo debut following ℃-ute's disband in 2017, she performed at Nippon Budokan, and her first live at Yokohama Arena has been announced for next spring. Her second album "i" has also been announced for December 18.

Lately, it has become common for idols to be multi-active. However, the reason she's worth mentioning is her professional attitude towards work, which focuses on providing "results", no matter the field.
On the day of our interview, she looked in the eyes of each and every person from the staff and introduced herself with a smile "Nice to meet you, I'm Suzuki Airi", then bowed. While already feeling a sense of "professional work" from that introduction, we talked about her view of work, built from her 18 years long career.